I Want

I want to elaborate
upon a topic easy to complicate
this topic is life, but get me right
this is my life that i have in sight.
at this point i feel i know what i want
i want something that is easier said, and is how ive always felt
i want to make a hand of all the cards ive been dealt
i want to board down these roads forever, hopping over bumps, and manging these hills
i want to play my trumpet and make it sing like butterfly fluttering on my trills
i want to run for hours and swim for days and board for weeks and making music for months and maybe write for years
but mostly i want to find a partner for life 
and live with them and love them for the rest of our living lives 
i want to be with her for even beyond our afterlives
i want to see her smile and make her laugh
i want to pick her up when she's down
i want be there for her even when others cant
i want to have a purpose
and what better purpose for a man than being a father
of course not now or anytime soon but later
after ive done what i must to call myself a man 
to be a man i need to be strong and have power and be respected like my father
the strongest is he who lives his life how he see fits
does not back down no matter how often society throws fists
needs not throw punches but use his words
knowledge is power, and words are power over violence
when society says you cant, standing up and saying I CAN!
saying I Will! saying I will not back down, I will stand my ground and reach for higher places
yea i grew up in south suburbia farthest thing from a ghetto, 
but that doesnt mean i cant reach for something higher, you kno
Always reaching higher, always striving for more, always looking for better than best
that is who i am and thats how i will gain my respect
not through fear or manipulation
 i will give respect, but that's a stipulation
anyone one worth respecting is respectful
but as i look at todays society that seems like bull
I have hope for its my strength to live the life ive set
using my words, not my fists, to fight my battles
respecting others, even when they get me rattled
and being a father for my child, like mine
this is what I want from my life